Countdown and things

I have 10 days ‘til I start University… I cannot contain my excitement.
However sadly I have so much stuff to get and do within those 10 measly days. So I think constructing a list on here will help me.
Things I already have:

  • All kitchen stuff minus a cheese grater, bottle & can opener and a wooden spoon.
  • A lamp
  • A rug
  • All bedding minus sheets 2 more pillow cases (I like loads pillows) and fitted sheet & valance (if I can find one in black I can’t seem to find one!)
  • 1 black cushion (needing 2 more cushions either 1 purple 1 black or 2 purple)
  • Laptop & case
  • A student diary

Things needed

  • Printer – lusting after a wireless hp one.
  • iPod of some description – preferably an iPod touch – Sister broke mine
  • All stationary and books
  • New clothes
  • Coat & Bag & Umbrella
  • 1 GB memory stick
  • Posters – have a twilight one already
  • Under bed storage bags (£2.50 from Wilkinsons – bargain!)
  • Storage boxes – preferably white wicker
  • White wicker laundry basket from Argos and a laundry bag to take clothes to the laundrette
  • Coat hangers
  • More mugs.
  • Glassess – shot and normal (already have wine glass)
  • Shower bag as communal (and makeup bag mines a big mess)
  • All toiletries minus shampoo. (with 3 girls in the house we tend to share all these so have to buy all now doing it on my own)
  • Toothbrush holder (preferably one of those sets that have soap dish etc in)
  • Hairdryer (I always use my sis’s cause mines craps so new one needed badly)
  • Digital camera – I always use my mum’s she got a new one recently and won’t let me have the old one she’s always so tight lol. So drastically needing my own. – May take advantage of the bundles alot of places are selling.

Thats a brief list I’m sure theres more I need that I can’t think off now. I’m thinking I’ll get many points on my boots card in the next 10 days haha.
Lastly as I said in my last post I went to Istanbul in August… sadly watching the news today that beautiful city is now flooded horrendously. I hope all the historical places I visited to don’t get seriously damaged it would be such a shame. Especially all palaces along the bosphorus… Hope they aren’t damaged in anyway. Especially the Dolambache palace:

The Dolambache palace

The Dolambache palace

Did I really last post in JULY? Wow… it’s almost september I cannot believe it.

The thing that gets me is this much time has passed and aside from the holiday to Istanbul, which by the way if anybody is looking for a Historical and cultural experience that will involve so much to do I would definitely recommend. It was so good to view the places that I had learned about in History in relationship to the beautiful Constantinople. So much of it is so well preserved especially the city wall that you are not seeing a fragment of wall and having to imagine what it looked like. Granted the crusaders left a bad mark on some areas but if you are interested in Islamic, Roman (and Byzantine history) then this is definitely place to be. For those that don’t know this place now resides in turkey and straddles the east and west. There’s a cute sign that says welcome to Asia so I now have officially been in Asia. Yay. There would be pictures but I am too lazy to get my camera and my 3 memory cards (yes I took that many photos!)

Anyway back to the point I haven’t been doing much at all aside from that and results night which told me that I am going to University which was great news, I found out on Thursday morning and then went to celebrate with friends. I was really happy but also quite sad as I knew it was official that I would be saying goodbye to my boyfriend and friends but everyone’s in the same boat I guess. We’ll just have to see how things go. I’ve just been spending as much time with my boyfriend as I can and in the meantime been chilling out at home or shopping for uni stuff. Is it bad that I’ve already bought most stuff? Aside from the actual academic stuff like books since I haven’t been given a reading list yet.

As far as financing my university life I’m not sure how it will go since student finance are absolute fucking idiots and messed up my application. But they said it will be ready for September. I don’t believe them but we’ll see. They apparently are taking so long because they need to assess my mother’s marriage certificate which was sent over 6 weeks ago. Are they that retarded? Lol My dad’s giving me £3,000 for uni which may not go far but I’m going to try to plan it out as: £1,000 for splurging on myself for things I want like Ipod touch and things for my room. £1,000 for books or stuff like that, any academic stuff then the final £1,000 for putting away for when it’s really needed like when I get in trouble which can sort of act as my overdraft since I don’t actually want to go down the over draft route if I can help it. It might not work out like that as I know things can happen that I didn’t anticipate but of course I plan to get a job while I’m there if I can but who knows I’ve already had a tip off from a friend about a job opening in October which she told me on the down low and said only a couple of her other friends knew about it which to be honest they are all a year or two below me and don’t have A levels or are in Uni so fingers crossed that it may work in my favour.

This post is longer than I anticipated and I can tell its summer as during that time my spelling and general grammar gets appalling. Same for a lot of students though.

Ok bye lovelies :) x

Tired body, buzzing mind

I hate it when that happens, you know you have just over 5 hours ‘til you have to wake up, yet you haven’t even been to bed yet. Well that’s happening now, its 4:30 am and I have to be up at around 10 am. Urgh, one thing about a student’s summer is it really messes your sleeping pattern up. A student’s summer without a Job that is.

I am full of energy mostly due to excitement. My holiday to Istanbul is only in two weeks and I haven’t really bought anything I need, although I am buying some stuff tomorrow. One of the joys of living in a big city like Manchester is many shops are open for a good while on a Sunday. I know it’s probably the same in most places smaller places but fewer shops are usually open! I am so excited to go to Istanbul since it’s a Historic place and I am history obsessed. So to see and imagine how Constantinople would have been is going to be amazing for me. I do not see the draw of resort type holidays. I want lots of History and culture to see. Which is probably why I didn’t find New York as interesting as a I thought it would be when I went in April. It was still a good experience anyhow and I will not lie I was in awe at how different life is there. However on the same trip I went to Iceland and I loved to experience a totally different culture. The drawback was the cold and their love for rotted shark.

Other reasons why I’m up? Relationship issues, we’ve had a bit of trouble but I talked to him about it tonight, and hopefully it should be sorted. Mostly it’s due to not seeing each other enough. I think it’s stupid since we’re both going to university in September we should be spending as much time as possible together. Meanwhile we’ve both mostly been with friends (more so him) Once a week is NOT enough to keep a relationship going. So hopefully it will be sorted enough until the end of august where we can decide if we want to stay together or not.

So yeah, this is all enough to keep me awake. This mix of excitement and sadness also brings confusion, which all of these mixed together make it impossible to sleep. I do however know it’s not helpful to switch the laptop on while you’re trying to wind down but oh well, Caffeine will be my friend tomorrow.

Insecurity

As I am of legal drinking age in the UK, I obviously go out from time to time. Not as often as my friends but as finance doesn’t allow that and my parents are less co-operative when I say I want to *Lend* money as they see through that and know it probably won’t be lent back. Maybe some time in later years I’ll thank them for that but for now I resent it as I have noticed that because I don’t drink much some of my friends have distanced themselves from me and those who drink group together. Maybe it’s true what I was taught in Psychology; People choose their friends for their activities.

Now back on to the point of the title. I see my photos from nights out and think *eugh* to pretty much every single one. I question why is it only me who looks rough on each one? I have many insecurities when it comes to looks and body issues. I always think am I the fattest looking here? I recently realised its stupid from when a friend said to me: “why do you look fine on a night out?” and this made me realise something. Why should I need to have it verified from someone else? I was over scrutinizing myself. So from now on I’m going to forget about looks and just try to enjoy myself.

Yeah I'm the dork in coral. But that's okay.

Yeah I'm the dork in coral. But that's okay.

Although admittedly I still want to think about losing weight! Maybe for health and image reasons!
What does everyone else think? Although I am/was hooked on image I don’t think it’s personally my fault. The media is that integrated into our lives it’s sort of become second nature to question and to scrutinize yourself and others over image. Maybe I’m not totally over image but I’m getting there. :)

Not again

Ok I am an idiot; I somehow messed up my installation of WordPress and now have to start all over again. I am very glad I hadn’t done a lot and haven’t lost many posts. I will be working on sorting this place out though. I have put another temporary theme up until I can stop being lazy and make a theme. But hey, I’m just getting back into this so it’s hard and I’ve probably forgot a lot of things.